A Guy from My Past

Dear you,

Remember when you asked me if I believe you or not and I answered "Yes" ?

You know what? I lied. Totally. I lied. Once again. I lied.

Remember when you mentioned that guy from my past and you proudly said that he is different from you?

You know what? You lied. Totally. You lied. Once again. You lied, boy.

Do I care about it? No.
Indeed, this letter is for you but it's not about you. It's about that guy from my past.

Here we go...

He was like a starlight for me, call me cheesy but seriously, he was just like that. I loved him and even deeper when he left.

For years -and until now-, I'm still wondering why the hell he wanted to leave. Where did I go wrong? Why did he change that quick?

In one point, he was just like you, full of bullshit. My hope was that high and my dream was so real towards him. I couldnt imagine myself being with someone else, there was only him. Everytime we had conversations, it was just like I moved to somewhere with his words flew away with me. It was splendid.

He was so real at that time.
He is so unreachable right now.
How do things change without permission?

Sorry not sorry for not believing you.

If you ask me later why I lied to you, I probably will say "because I didnt want to make you disappointed"

If you ask me why I didn't believe your words, I will make sure that my answer will be "because there was a guy from my past who surprisingly lied to me"